Just Me

Being with others who truly care has given me a sense of liberation. Four people especially because with them I don’t have to pretend to be someone I’m not when I’m around them. If I am upset they help me through it and if I am happy they are there to be happy with me. That is the true beauty of having these friends. I don’t always have to agree with them, I don’t even have to like them all of the time and they most definitely should not like me or agree with my liberal ass all of the time. Friends are there for you all of the time, in any situation. They know when to help in full force and when it is best for them just to keep their distance. Friends are supposedly the family that you chose so it makes sense that they are going to hurt you sometimes just like your family will. Some will have to be selfish, while others will give you their everything, and there will be the few rare people that actually do both. It is those people in my friend group that I am so extremely grateful for,...

My mental health has slowly been deteriorating as this summer comes to a close. I recently went through a break up and I think I have lost one of my closest friends for a while. I feel so bad for putting everyone through my problems with myself and I hate that I take those problems out on them. I had a major depressive episode beginning on Thursday august 10th and it is coming to a close today Sunday August 13. This depressive episode was sparked by being broken up with after two weeks of being in a relationship. Due to the breakup's unexpected nature, I hit a downward spiral as soon as those words were uttered. I am still hurt, filled with sadness and pain but I am slowly getting back up there. One of the things that I experienced in this episode that I never experienced before was a lack of appetite. I had not eaten anything until today, before today everything seemed disgusting, I couldn't even drink juice, my diet for those two full days consisted only of water. the nature ...